Not much to report. Senior year isn't really as bad as I anticipated, but it might get worse, I mean with all the good-byes and all. I sort of wonder what classmates I'll never see again. Which ones I'll completely forget all together. -- That'll be nice.
I mean, I'm definitely going to stay in touch with all my closer friends through twitter and facebook and other means of social networking. Its just weird that you can't think "I'll take that class next year" Because then you're all like, "Yeah, I'm not gonna be here next year am I?"
First Pep Band is next Friday! Hurrah! I think that is going to be my most missed thing when we're done with school. Pep Band. I'm geeky.
Alright, so, I've been writing in this one not really 'secret' just normal journal since January 2nd, 2008. And I've never realized how proud I am of myself for doing that until I went back and I just started reading and reading. I mean, you don't really realize how many memories you lose throughout your life. There are so many random tidbits that would totally be lost in time forever if I wouldn't have wrote them down. The things in there I write aren't important, but they're important to me. And I'm happy I have something to look back on. Unfortunately, I stopped writing May 14th, 2009, the day before my 16th birthday. Because I was all like "Yeah, I'm just going to type my journal now, I'm just gonna blog about everything!"(I mean, it was after I got Lymee so I thought I would) It didn't work out so well. And I missed the beginning of my Jason Mraz crazed obsession and a lot of the middle of it. I really wish I could look back and see how it started a bit more...
You see, I'm studying myself. Not in a creepy way, just like... Um, for example. Let's say I'm the weather. And I'm also the weatherman... Okay, this does sound weird, but I'm just trying to look back to see how these obsessions start and how they end. I mean, is there some sort of formula for this? Because my Mraz obsession is quickly, quickly leaving me and in its place Alex Day has taken over. Its just like the Robert to Jason transfer, it happened so fast I didn't know what to think.
The thing is, when I realized that Jason was taking Rob's place it just took me a little while to accept it--but I did, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for Alex to take Jason's place. Mr. Mraz was a very good influence on me. I remember my line was always, "The world hates me." However, J was all, "Yeah, the world is great. We're just here to make it better." He never really said that, I just made it up. It kinda sounds like something he would say though right? I've gone from pessimistic to almost optimistic, by listening to his upbeat fun-loving music.
Now that I'm saying all this, its sort of like, "Get over yourself, Geez, you can still listen to Jason Mraz's music & Alex Day's music." Yeah, I know brain, just quit your logicalness.
Woah. Something just hit me.
Robert Pattinson can be my favorite Actor.
Jason Mraz can be my favorite musician.
Alex Day can be my favorite future husband.
That works right? . . . Except for the most-likely never marrying Alex part. Oh well, even us geeks need to dream.
Anyways, my journal is beginning to be filled with my scribbled writings again. I mean, since I randomly quit all that time ago, I still wrote in it, but only when I felt like there was something to be said. NOW I write in it everyday I get a chance to. So far, I've written in it almost everyday of senior year. Hoping I can look back one day and say, "Wow, you're a genius."
For that is truly what I am.
--Genius
